As a result of constant chatting I fell in love with a man from USA, this man later became my husband. I never would have thought it possible to love someone without seeing them in real life or touching them. Through the wonder of the internet we met and our faith in real love brought us together. We started to chat privately, completely ignoring everything around us, both in our real lives and also on the net. I told him about my uneasy life. I told him about my biggest treasures in life – my two children. We agreed that I will come to see him. I t was a big step for me and didn't really know what I would face with on the other side of the world. God was me at that time. What I found was the most loving man I had ever met. We spent three wonderful months together before I had to return back home to sort out my life. I missed my children very much.
But time apart with Steward turned to be unbearable. Three months later he was ready to come to Russia for our reunion. Steward was eager to come to my country. But I realize it would be a real challenge for him. So many differences are between our countries. But as fate had pointed it, he had to return to the USA. What to do then…I had to make the decision…the decision about my children… I didn't want to leave them behind, and couldn't take them with me to an unknown country…I just did not want to hurt them in anyway…and there were also problems with my ex-husband (he did not let them to go with me).
Steward and I were finally married back in USA and it was a wonderful day. The only thing that would have made it perfect was if my boys had been with me. In summer my sons came for a holiday with my mother to the USA. They stayed for five weeks and I only wish it could have been longer…forever. But the boys are young and are at school and couldn’t be away from their school friends and surroundings. I couldn’t believe my eyes. They were here at last! After what seemed a lifetime of waiting outside their gate, I saw them, I moved towards them and held out my arms; they ran straight into them. They had traveled around the world to see me. We knew the five weeks would go quickly and so we had planned on making it as busy as possible.
The most memorable day of the holiday was the day we drove to Disneyland. It was a big surprise for the boys. We pulled into the car park of Disneyland in the morning, to let the boys have a good time there. I asked them if they knew where we were. Having a quick look around saw a Mickey Mouse picture and a Disney symbol, they screamed with delight. They couldn't believe they were in Disneyland. They love Winnie the Pooh and Tiger so much.
But the fairy tale had to come to its end and soon the day of their departure came. They didn't want to leave me, but I had no choice. In some years when they would be more mature they could make the decision where to live for themselves. I also think of the great experience they had here in USA. They saw many places, things and people. They made many new friends. So I am living now, flying here and there, sometimes feeling torn between two countries and only due to Steward understanding and support I can bear this all.
I wish, I hope, I pray soon we all be one happy family…
Dina and Steward.
